tuesday, 29.1.08 12:38 a.m.
friday, 4.1.08 12:10 p.m.
actually it feels both weird and normal at the same time that there's no preschool jitters and rushing out last minute to buy school stuff and feeling that horrible dread as you lie in your bed on the night of 1st jan. great to wake up on 2nd jan and be free! but i think the fact that im no longer schooling (uni excluded) will take awhile to sink in.. seeing school kids in their uniforms and reminding myself that i can no longer ogle jc guys (sigh) will probably help. boohoo we're all adults and alumni!
okay this is short and sad. think im moving to livejournal soon. as soon as i fix up my template. see you! happy 2008!
sunday, 2.9.07 12:06 a.m.
-1 in 2 smokers will die prematurely as a result of smoking
-About 7 Singaporeans die prematurely from smoking-related diseases each day
-Every year, almost 5 million people lose their lives to smoking
ingredients in cigarettes
-Tobacco smoke contains more than 4,000 chemicals. At least 400 are poisonous and more than 50 are cancer-causing.
Tar is a black and sticky residue used to cover road surfaces. It clogs up the lungs and causes lung cancer.
Benzo(a)pyrene is found in emissions from burned plant and petroleum products
B-napthylamine is used in the manufacture of dyes, condensation colours and rubber
Cadmium is a poisonous chemical that can cause liver, kidney and brain damage, commonly found in car batteries
Nitrosamine is found in harsh detergents; commonly used as an engine degreaser
Nicotine is a powerful and addictive drug that increases the stickiness of blood and decrease the diameter of blood vessels, increasing the risk of stroke and heart attacks
also,
Acetone is used in nail polish remover and paint stripper
Ammonia is used in the dry cleaning industry
Arsenic is a deadly poison used in pest control and insecticides
Benzene is a cancer-causing agent used in the production of fuel and chemicals
Napthalene is a killer ingredient found in mothballs
Formaldehyde is a known cancer-causing substance used to preserve dead bodies
DDT is a pesticide used to kill insects that can kill small animals too
Vinyl Chloride is a chemical used to make plastic
Polonium-210 is a radioactive substance
Hydrogen Cyanide is a poison used in gas chambers
also, heavy metals like lead, mercury, things we learn in chem like nitrobenzene, phenol, benzopyrene, hydrazine.. etc etc. we all know the benzene ring is up to no good cos its a carcinogen. i just dont understand how supposedly rational human beings can waste money on something quarters their livespans, contributes to global warming, and hurts their loved ones.
smoking is stupid and far from cool.
friday, 31.8.07 10:07 p.m.
ive had this song stuck in my head for days since i watched hairspray! man i love it. the show and the song. go listen to it and get hooked too.
here
been watching 3 movies too many.. gulp. byee
thursday, 23.8.07 10:40 p.m.
5 Secrets to a Perfect Relationship
1. It is important that a man helps you around the house and has a job.
2. It is important that a man makes you laugh.
3. It is important to find a man you can count on and doesn't lie to you.
4. It is important that a man is good in bed and loves making love to you.
5. It is extremely important that these four men don't know each other.
hahaha..stupid
tuesday, 21.8.07 09:04 p.m.
the clock seems to be going faster and faster i swear.. not nice. anyway pesta sukan on sunday was quite entertaining.. although it was sucky too =( but we're all winners at heart!!
it's real plastic.. no joke
tuesday, 14.8.07 10:53 a.m.
this doctor Dr. Denis Mukwege was a kind hearted soul who helped to put the women's lives back together.. and.. ok im just gonna type that extract here.
He first became aware of the epidemic of rape in 1996.
"I saw women who had been raped in an extremely barbaric way," he recalls. "First, the women were raped in front of their children, their husbands and neighbours. Second, the rapes were done by many men at the same time. Third, not only were the women raped, but their vaginas were mutilated with guns and sticks." These situations show that sex was being used as a weapon that is cheap.
"When rape is done in front of your family, it destroys everyone. I have seen men suffer who watched their wives get raped; they are not mentally stable anymore. The children are in even worse condition. Most of the time, when a woman suffers this much violence, she is not able to bear children afterward. Clearly these rapes are not done to satisfy any sexual desire but to destroy the soul. The whole family and community are broken."
a woman's story: "..We would hide many nights in the bush. The soldiers found us there. They killed our village chief and his children. We were 50 women. I was with my 3 children and my older brother; they told him to have sex with me. He refused, so they cut his head and he died."
One of the soldiers forced her to drink his urine and eat his faeces, killed 10 of her friends and then murdered her children: her 4-year-old, 2-year-old boys and her 1-year-old girl. "They flung my baby's body on the ground like garbage. One after another they raped me. From that my vagina and anus were ripped apart."
"One of the soldiers cut open a pregnant woman. It was a mature baby and they killed it. They cooked it and forced us to eat it."
after reading that i really cant even begin to describe how i feel.. but i think about how sometimes i complain about my life, and there are people out there living hells that i cant even imagine. makes you wonder why on earth you're so lucky to be here and safe and healthy.
saturday, 11.8.07 01:17 p.m.
sorry for not updating.. blame the books for being too engaging.. anyway im in love (for the gazillionth time..) with poon wei ren
's puppies!!!!
im in love in love in love i love puppies... i need a new pet :(
saturday, 28.7.07 11:37 p.m.
tuesday, 24.7.07 08:20 p.m.
but what irks me the most is LITTERING. just now i was on the bus and this old man blatantly chucked his tissue onto the grass next to the bus stop just before he got onto the bus. after he blew his nose into it. what a disgusting jerk. i gave him the killerest stare i could muster. 3 times. and the third stare i cast at him just before i got off the bus so that i could leave a lingering effect.. and to my disgust he was grinning at me in the 'ha. little kid trying to reprimand your elder?' way. my blood boils when i think about it man.
honestly. just teach these old farts their manners and our country will be a zillion times nicer. hate such people that make singapore such a revolting country.
saturday, 14.7.07 10:33 a.m.
i really do hope things around here get better soon.. i have A's to study for man..
while i'm at it i decided to post pictures of ms han's baby.. we visited her at home on wednesday and shes really absolutely adorable. just the type of baby i'd imagine ms han to have.. and shes so clever too :)
with steph. shes holding a paper towel cos ms han asked her to mop up the water she spilled on the floor.. cept she kinda went to the wrong place to mop. super cute
ok i look so sweaty here.. sorry.. baby iman playing with her toy phone
smiling baby and steph. her eyelashes are so long..
she is such a sweet baby and i love her!! hope i have nice babies next time too..
wednesday, 4.7.07 08:10 p.m.
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i'm scared!!!!
sunday, 1.7.07 10:56 a.m.
anyway yesterday me lois and puipui went for dim sum buffet at excelsior hotel.. dont bother asking where it is cos its damn ulu, plus the shopping arcade in the hotel is amazingly out of date.. even more sleazy and run down than geylang plaza or something.
puiseng eating sweet and sour pork.. very glam
that's round 1.. i didnt make it to round 2.. sorry guys..
me and lois! i dont look quite like me..
been watching bleach quite hardcorely..21 episodes in 2 days. 25 mins each episode.. so thats about 10 hours? cant blame me la.. the last time i watched was in the december hols so i missed out on 6 months worth of episodes and everyone always made fun of me (rachel wong!!) for being stagnated at episode 104. ok anyway i think this guy is very handsome and i like him even though hes the bad guy..
Grimmjow!
ok his name sucks. and this picture isnt very flattering but he is really cool and he has a hot bod. ok im sorry im gushing about an anime-ted (jokes) character.. but he really is! and anyway gerry liked simba.....ok i shant go there hahahha.
k bye!
saturday, 30.6.07 11:45 p.m.
friday, 22.6.07 11:09 a.m.
jenna was eating her breakfast on the bus (a BUN) as usual
soap starts scolding her.. then jenna tries to ignore him cos hes old and balding and old people just go on and on. then he just wouldnt stop so jenna could ignore him no longer..
jenna: WELL ITS A PITY THAT FOREIGNERS ARE NOW TELLING LOCALS WHAT TO DO
soap: you are an embarrassment to your parents!
jenna: WELL IM CERTAINLY GLAD YOURE NOT MINE
soap: fucking twerp! (walao!)
jenna: WELL IT'S ALSO A SHAME THAT A SEEMINGLY RESPECTABLE GENTLEMEN LIKE YOURSELF HURLS EXPLETIVE LADEN VOCABULARY AT AN 18 YEAR OLD SCHOOLGIRL
and she got off the bus. hahahahah.. she really showed him who's boss man. cant stand such self-righteous idiots. its just a bun!!!!!!!!! geez
just now i saw a super cute cocker spaniel puppy across the road from my house.. i was already on my side of the road but i crossed it again to go and pat it. but it was so terrified that it didnt dare come close.. only when i put my hand there for it to smell. so sweet! i want a cocker spaniel.. and i miss tiger =(
tuesday, 19.6.07 10:52 p.m.
the holidays are seriously zooming by like nobody's business. damn depressing and monotonous la.. hope i'll snap out of this mood soon. wah suddenly my brain juices stopped flowing.. lack of conversation topics........awkward silence....... oh ya i wanted to talk about being pregnant. NOT THAT I AM! geez i wanted to say that i was reading shopaholic and baby.. and becky bloomwood had cravings for pineapple and pink cardigans. and it got me thinking about how my husband is going to have a ball of a time cos im going to have cravings 24/7 man.. i mean i already have cravings on a daily basis (mee pok! wanton mee!).. he just has to pray hard that i dont develop a craving for bird's nest or caviar...hahahahahahah...
okay im going to sleep soon. super tuitiony and tiring day...
bye
thursday, 14.6.07 12:00 a.m.
then 3 guys got out of the car and bashed the guy up and told the girl "have fun with us or we'll kill him".. and the girl had no choice and THEY GANG RAPED HER. ONE AFTER ANOTHER. and then they took all their money and escaped. I AM SO ANGRY I CANT EVEN BEGIN TO DESCRIBE HOW ANGRY I AM. I HATE RAPISTS SO MUCH I COULD PROBABLY STARE THEM TO DEATH BUT THEN AGAIN IF I CAME CLOSE ENOUGH TO A RAPIST I WOULDNT JUST STARE AT HIM I'D CASTRATE HIM SLOWLY AND PEEL OFF ALL THE SKIN ON HIS BODY WITH AN APPLE PEELER AND THEN DUNK HIM IN A TUB OF CONCENTRATED SALT SOLUTION AND WATCH HIM DISSOLVE SLOWLY AND THROW IN SOME GAYS AND LET HIM GET RAPED IN HIS BUTT UNTIL HE DIES A SLOW AND AGONIZING DEATH. and somehow find a way to repeat that process for an eternity.
i apologise for the caps but im just so pissed off at how there's always no justice in this world. if the people never get caught i swear im going to go hunting for them. the girl is only 19 years old thats 1 year older than i am and she still has like 7 or 8 decades more to live and such shit has to happen to her... ok i ought to control my emotions cos im already so stressed out by cts that im having zits on my face and thats never happened before aaaaarggggghhhhhh
i hate this planet
saturday, 9.6.07 10:55 p.m.
just came back from watching Sentio the dance concert organized in aid of the bone marrow donor programme.. and i must say that it was great! save for the irritating emcees. the guy was seriously not funny and i was cringing while he was speaking in that act sophisticated tone. saw yjing and si en as samsui women.. super glam hahahah
today lois and i played volleyball with rj alumni and their random friends.. damn fun. nearly could forget the scorching heat.. wah the sun is really super killer these days. to hell with global warming!! global warming can literally go to hell cos its so hot there that a few million degrees celsius more probably wont make a diff. i miss playing volleyball.. hope i get to come down more often.
lois and i were studying in school for awhile today when she suddenly commented that time goes by really quickly when youre studying.. ya man. and i was thinking that if i were someone who wanted to end my life but the end couldnt come quickly enough.. just study! you'd be 96 before you know it.. i think by the time i complete 25 math questions in a row i'd be 96. im damn good at math!!
everyone give me your 4D bets cos im a bookie now~ ha. pun
not funneee (private joke. right lois?)
im bored!!!!
saturday, 2.6.07 11:22 a.m.
studying has been slow.. slow and steady wins the race.. haha unfortunately there isnt a leisure of time. just 22 days left man. panic panic!!
anyway my main idea was to blog about how frightening the world is becoming. cos i was reading the newpapers today.. a 3 year old girl in china got beaten to death for not being about to recognise the word banana in chinese.. 蕉. her dad beat her with his slippers until she was in quite a bad state and though her mum knew she wasnt alright she still beat her again for not being able to recognise the word again the next day. bloody hell!! give her a break she's only 3 years old! now she's gone forever because of 蕉.
and there's another recent case about a german guy who had a desire since he was 8 years old to have a handsome younger brother whom he could bind to himself forever by eating so he advertised online for someone who wanted to be eaten and SOMEBODY RESPONDED TO THAT AD. the guy wanted to commit suicide so he decided to end his life by being eaten. read about it here i feel too sick to carry on anymore.. and apparently he pan fried the guy's dick and the BOTH of them ate it together.................. .... .........
then alvin says there's this guy in japan who sold his mum on eBay just cos he loved his mum so much and wanted to share with someone what a fantastic mum she is. SERIOUSLY... you can sell your mum on eBay..? hey i wanna try! ok kidding. SERIOUSLY.. thats. not a very nice thing to do. and someone bought her i think?
aiya the world is going crazy. study so hard for what, in the end everyone also go crazy..
monday, may 28 09:21 a.m.
sunday, 20.5.07 09:39 a.m.
yesterday i was on the bus and it went by the 4D stall near my house.. and it suddenly hit me that in 6 days i can buy 4D!! so i grinned broadly. hope nobody saw.. damn exciting to be 18 la.
oh... for those who havent, go watch the french movie priceless starring audrey tautou!! its really good. there are subtitles.... yeap. okay im going to go study with lois and val so toods. good luck for gp ct on wed yall
sunday, 13.5.07 12:15 a.m.
rjc sherwin 1
sarah sherwin sim blog 1
"sherwin sim shi yang" 1
sherwin sim raffles 1
sherwin sarah raffles junior college blog 1
sherwin sim 2
this is from my stat counter since may 1. and its like this every month.. what's the big fuss about sherwin sim??? he's just sherwin! hot meh? waterpolo captain...so??? hot meh handsome meh?? i just dont get it.......maybe cos i've known him for 4 years. trust me you'd feel the same way too if you were me..or us..me and my friends..
1. he eats caterpillars..
2. doesnt cut his toenails (yuck!hes a boy!)
3. flirts with his cousin's girlfriend (and vice versa-.-)
yes chenkai and sherwin from waterpolo are cousins in case you dont already know. hence any resemblance is not purely coincidental. their mums are sisters. ok enough about sherwin.. too much publicity spoils the kid. toods
thursday, 10.5.07 06:23 p.m.
damn traumatising.. i've only eaten a few spoonfuls of porridge.. since 2pm yesterday. quite hungry now.. but i think its quite cool cos lois says its natural detox. hahaha.. i dont deny it... i had serious diarrhea the whole night la. i know its not the glam-est thing to say on my blog.. but its true! anyway i am super contagious now.. and im most likely going to school tomorrow cos i feel much better already.. so my friends who are reading this please remember not to hug me/kiss me/hold my hand/share my food unless you want to spend your weekend hangin' out in the loo.
some photos to brighten up my day:
we are so ugly man...hahahhahahahah
thursday, 3.5.07 10:20 p.m.
anyway, so much for my gloating all these months that i havent fallen sick at all this year.... everyone around me was falling sick a gazillion times, especially jenn and rachel.. and jenn getting shingles.. but i stil hung around them and escaped unscathed..... until this morning when i woke up with a full blown sore throat :( geez. there was no warning at all la!! maybe it was the mango i ate at aunty ruth's house.. it was so ripe and sweet that i just gobbled up many big pieces. hmmmm whatever the case... i feel sucky and sick now my left nostril is blocked and my head feels heavy and my throat feels like a thousand bees went inside and stung it.
nomore training for an eternity..! feels weird to be so free.. but the feeling sucks knowing that i will grow fat(ter, as my friends will say) at the rate im eating. T.T anyway, no training but me and my teammates and lois will be joining the ripcurl beach volleyball tournament on 12th may at sentosa woohoo we'll get our asses kicked but its gonna be how fun la. and nomore chem spa FOR ETERNITY!!!! i cant express my elation. except that it is super cool to have 2 hour chemistry tutorials every wednesday morning... oh life's good..
k this was pointless. i admit i just wanted an excuse to whine about being sick. being sick stinks!! i wanted to buy the last ritter sport cornflakes chocolate.......... i really wanted to..
sunday, 29.4.07 11:25 a.m.
anyway volleyball season is over.. it went as quickly as it came. hmmm. i have mixed feelings about it. im relieved its over and overjoyed that i can finally start studying seriously (really!!).. but on the other hand.. my school volleyball career is over :( i'll really miss the feeling of wanting to train hard to improve to get somewhere. and i must say that im really proud of all of us and our fighting spirit! same for our boys :) we've all been aware that we're disadvantaged right from the start, cos most players in A division have been playing for six years, whereas we've had a measly 1 year and a few months.. although some of us are a little more experienced. but its good to know we still put up good fights! watch out, volleyball world.. youve not seen the last of me yet..... i think. i'd like to continue playing volleyball in uni if i can.
oh just wanted to say that my latest song obsession is kokomo by The Beach Boys. okay i know im a few decades late, but hey it wasnt during MY generation. my generation is genie in the bottle and baby one more time.. but kokomo is really nice.
We'll get there fast
And then we'll take it slow
That's where we wanna go
Way down to kokomo
tuesday, 24.4.07 10:06 p.m.
geez man. today's match really stank. ive repeated the story so many times that im sick of hearing it already. basically... coach kayu!! not referee kayu lor.. although i admit the referees were really picking on us. watching us damn closely to spot every tiny toe out of line.. ha ha literally... anyway we've been warned that sometimes referees dislike us cos we're raffles. but i didnt expect to encounter any la. oh well. after today's civics lesson i suddenly feel very conscious about what im blogging. but i really think coach was super muddled and incomprehensible regarding his choice of play today. he made me play the back court when i havent been playing back court all my life, grace normally plays.. and he did not sub out my poor sick junior who was yellow and looked like she was going to die when i banged into her while getting a ball. why?!!??! i cant think of any reasons to justify this. unless he's in cahoots with the ref. or spying for innova jc.
i know i sound like a bloody sore loser but. we were really on fire today.. we played super well, save for the receiving of the opponents' spikes. we were leading by 2 points in the second set. and in my heart i honestly felt like.. we could win! you know. the higher your hopes, the greater the despair when you fail. yeah thats just it. to make myself feel better im just blaming everything on Fate and how it's not meant to be... oh just not meant to be. anyway i feel a wee bit better after talking to timo.
tïMÕ [top.4] "it's a fight till the end" says:
hahaha we <33 vball girls!
tïMÕ [top.4] "it's a fight till the end" says:
we should have combined dinner after season yes?
awww timo is so sweet. alright enough of harping on it for 7 hours its time for me to let go what i cant change! and thanks to angie goh for being super sweet too. k bye bye
saturday, 14.4.07 10:56 p.m.
no.. seriously. its exactly 200 days to the GP paper. which also means it's 200 days to RJC Waterpolo Captain Sherwin Sim Shi Yang's 18th birthday.. you lucky dog! hahahha. chelsea's birthday is 2 days after alevels end you luckier dog!! ok anyway i dont need additional stress.. already have volleyball nationals starting next friday. today we had friendly match against pasir ris sec again.. and by my tone it obviously did not go well. but! who's gonna care about this little trivial matter when we have bigger issues at hand?? national schools!! geez we're just taking things easy while we prepare ourself for the big game. ha ha jokes.
and i lost my shoebag on wednesday.. bloody thing.. it left itself on the bus or at the bus stop outside my house la. but thank goodness my sister bought a pair of volleyball shoes and left them behind in singapore while she was here! yay.. and i also took my kneepads out of my shoebag the morning i lost it. it was as though i knew! maybe i lost it on purpose..? ha ha ha aa..
okay la nothing much to say also. oh yeah this is almost one week late but im so proud of the polo boys! 5-1 to hwa chong love you guys man. byee
friday, 6.4.07 11:58 a.m.
im happy cos someone has been making me very happy :) no more details cos im so shy..... ok photos that i feel like posting up for fun:
val and lois.. room at Scarlet! damn romantic la. lois wants to have her first time there. good idea!
love that blue chair!! if only i'd brought a bigger bag i'd have stolen it.
shiokest cupcakes in the universe i swear..my mouth is watering just looking at them. i ate the one right in the middle.. thanks val!
a gorgeous japanese rose in my garden..
feeling a little nostalgic
okay have a great friday.. long weekend woohoo!
saturday, 31.3.07 11:52 a.m.
and im especially happy for bala and jingyi (though i dont know her.. but we would have been teammates) for kicking some hwa chong ass. after those bouts on tuesday those hwa chong people went home and starting blogging about all the injustice in the world, all the unscrupulous black belted jerks that would purposely kick a yellow belter's eye during the bout, all the lousy ass referees, and how ridiculous it is for bala to win cos she's nothing but five rice sacks heavier than her opponent and only knows how to put her lead weight on the opponent's ankle and weigh her down, and sit on her..
wah. angry i tell you!! but cos we're not that uncool, we didnt bother flaming them. but im glad to see that one of the hwa chong girls whom we'd always thought was quite cute and nice (according to lois.. i dont know her) cos she's small sized.. she blogged another entry after her super distasteful show of a lack of sportsmanship and apologised (to noone in particular, she herself had realised how sucky she sounded). so i decided that i am neutral towards them again. not neutral to a certain m* j*n however.. i still think she's ew. cos she didnt apologise for being a childish sore loser brat. so there
on to the next topic.. once i ate at lawry's the prime rib with my parents and my dad's guests that were in town, and after that there was a lucky draw.. i won a night's stay at the Ritz Carlton (first letter caps-ed for the wow effect).. shiok man! but i made the booking too late.. the deadline was 31st march (thats today) and i only booked on 23rd march.. haha. so i couldnt get a room.. and the person recommended the Scarlet hotel.. sounds super ulu and unheard of.. but its a boutique hotel and looks super cool la. look here and prepare to be blown away by what you'd think sounds like a sleazy hotel.. my sister just said "i think this is cooler than the Ritz, actually" haha. anyway so my friends and i are going to stay there tonight.. belated birthday celebrations for our favouritest val and ruth :)
okay this is the longest entry ever.. going off now and i apologise for the ( ) brackets overload in this entry (but hey they were appropriate) so bye!
thursday, 29.3.07 12:06 a.m.
a limited edition steinway grand piano... man i'd sell my soul for one of these.
saturday, 24.3.07 05:29 p.m.
going for my cousin's wedding in 1 hour.. quite cool la.. though its not a close cousin, i still enjoy attending weddings and basking in the glamness of the event.. yay
this morning i went for training as usual, and the bus stop gate was locked as usual (stupid school.) so i climbed the gate as usual... and i got cut AGAIN. but this time it was 3 cuts on my legs and they were bloody cuts.. poor me.. mabel got cut too! how can they let their pupils climb over the gate to get into the school la?! plus the other entrance is like 5km away... idiots!!!! its cos im in a good mood now that im not using vulgarities ok...
today we had match against yishun junior college and i think im peaking :) hooray.. but i started dropping in the 4th set i played.. and at the end of the day after playing like 7 sets i was really pooped la. but good training! yay we didnt have to run 1.2km cos we managed to get 20 points when playing against our seniors.. the feeling is damn shiok.
hahahahha i am so happy today.. because i had great company yesterday :) oh i love my life i love my life i love my life...
sunday, 18.3.07 10:29 a.m.
and lois is super creepy please. this morning i was thinking about asking her to go to king albert park macs to study.. when she just smsed me asking me if i want to go there!! so scary..!! and i told her that i was afraid she might not want to go there cos it can be real noisy.. and she said she was thinking the same thing.. we seriously have telepathy sometimes la. like the time when she was going to call me at my house phone and she picked up the reciever.. and heard my voice. cos i called her at that exact moment! eeyikes.. guess we aint best friends for nothing!!
i am super happy although cts start tomorrow cos.. i just am! hahahahahaha. i love my life... okok got to go bathe and study already. good luck to everyone.. lots of it! but not too much good luck to the clever people (cos they're clever already, dont need luck one)
bye............!
thursday, 15.3.07 11:00 p.m.
anyway i was doing vectors for 3 hours just now until i couldnt take it anymore and here i am. and i was listening to my ipod at the same time.. then came on time is running out by muse. ha ha.. jokes.. as if i need the reminder that common tests are in 3 and a half days? bloody'ell (aussie accent)! sian ji pua........
and i injured my left elbow today and mr gab tan says that its possible that it could be a permanent injury cos he has the same thing and it hurts everytime he plays volleyball!! i got it when i was blocking coach's super hard spike.. my arm hyperextended.. ...painful T.T i hate my life.. seriously.
k some photos so my blog wouldnt be so boring.. puiseng's farewell at Loof last friday!
chelsea and puiseng.. super act cute la. speaking of chelsea.. omg i need to tell the whole universe that she ate 1 tub of ice cream and 3 MAGNUMS AT A GO the other day O_O. 1 normal tub.. not the mini kind.. omgogmogmgomg fatty
puiseng and me. looks like he's practicing "cute" poses for japan....eeyer
girls of the night! lois being her usual self after about 1/3 of a drink
boys of the night.. puiseng, DJ Ken (hes really the dj! and puiseng's friend. my friend now too!) and konstantin
k la buzzing off now. buzzzz.... k not funny. study hard..
monday, 12.3.07 11:31 p.m.
the Goo Goo Dolls and Elmo
though its a little freaky when they pat elmo on the back cos hes kinda like.. a red sock.. hmm.
thursday, 8.3.07 11:18 p.m.
been going around with a song stuck in my head all day! if you walk past me you might hear me singing it.. asleep on a sunbeam by belle and sebastian.
another summer's passing by
all i need is somewhere i
feel the grass beneath my feet
i walk on sand
a fire i can warm my hands
my joy will be complete
so nice.. i think my sister and i have the same taste in songs. or maybe cos im a copycat and like her songs (which she will say i am =( )
tomorrow is a happy day again!! i love fridays.
monday, 5.3.07 09:21 p.m.
however.. tomorrow is still a happy day. haha!
good luck for gp ct~~
wednesday, 28.2.07 08:37 p.m.
anyway today wasnt a very good day due to certain events that i dont wish to talk about.. im just very disappointed with a person's behaviour. actually, more than disappointed.. im downright appalled.. just hope the situation wont deteriorate further.
and its seriously scary how quickly time is passing la. i seem to be saying that in every entry due to my decreased frequency in blogging.. march is here already.. the hols are in 10 days (the 11th) and the cts are in.. 19 days.. good lord! i feel like im taken by surprise.. and that means that the number of days to nationals can be counted in about.. 5 hands.. :( i feel like i havent reached my peak. and funny how the other day during civics we were doing the survey to see if we were burned out.. and my score was 35 (in danger of severe burnout). seriously?? my ass la.. aiya but i do feel rather stressed and constantly kept on my toes.. and i also feel like theres alot of stuff on my plate.. and im not helping myself by letting things accumulate!
time management!! just hope things will go on the right track after season ends.. i feel pretty much not in the mood to do anything with all the training going on.. but maybe im just finding excuses :(
and on the last unexpected note.. i feel very very happy. hahaha.. no prizes for guessing. going to bathe and do work already so.. poka! :)
friday, 23.2.07 02:32 p.m.
so many things to do, so little time.... man its already the 23rd of feb... a few months more and i'll be in the cold multi-purpose hall taking the biggest exam in my life... omg better go study now bye bye
wednesday, 21.2.07 09:41 p.m.
aiya, i just want to be neutral. but i cant help finding it damn funny how the whole thing has been blown out of proportion.. just some damn poster of the campus superstar guy on grace's blog, and she wasnt even the one who doodled on it.. her handwriting's not so ugly lor. and in the first place, being her best friend.. i know she didnt mean what she said in that way. hello please? she doesnt even know that boy la. but we all wanted narpal's band to win cos theyre really awesome. and it WAS true that we couldnt hear a single word of the sheesha suicide switch sides song.. though we thought the background music was good.
funny people all calling her bitch and stuff.. get a life la. she's one of the furthest people from bitch i can think of.. and if you really want to stand up for your friend then stop making a big fuss out of nothing. dont you think he'd be happier if he didnt know what people were saying about him? and take it like a man! he didnt even flame grace himself (making an assumption here..) so who are you to be his loudhailer to publicise that blog entry about grace thinking there's something wrong with his face.. so now the whole school is going to talk about it and because the mind works in strange ways the more you think about it the more you will think his face is funny? youre not helping your friend. i dont think he's butt ugly but neither do i think he's drop dead gorgeous.. he's just a j1 lor. so many people in school have his type of looks.. it just so happens that everyone knows about him thats why hes under the spotlight. if you dont want attention then dont join competitions shown on national tv.. people will always talk about you if youve been on tv. not attacking him here ok, im telling his friends that are scolding my friend.
yeah so get over it. you cant please everyone, and you cant expect everyone to please you. end of story. but i'll also throw in some wise words of the day to neutralise any fire ive stirred up with my very frank words..
"Blog responsibly."
-Kenny Ng Chi Hou (yes THAT kenny. scary sia)
one more word of advice.. dont pick a fight with grace. unless you're sure you can fight the very big and macho chenkai..
sunday, 18.2.07 10:53 a.m.
friday night me and lois went out with our old judoka friends.. lois and
photo!
click on the image to see it enlarged...
alright got to go bathe toods! have a great day :)
sunday, 11.2.07 11:06 p.m.
shameless request alert... i want flowers on valentine's day!! so i wont look so sad. owell. i will probably look quite sad la. anyway there's chem spa and training on that day.. and anyway again there's nothing to celebrate. i shall go home and hide after training so i wont see all the couples in the universe roaming the streets with the love in their eyes overspilling onto the roads...
sour grapes! i am going to sleep. goodnight
monday, 5.2.07 09:16 p.m.
my mood has been pretty volatile lately for i dont know what reason.. probably due to the ten zillion things on my mind.. but so far only one person has been on the receiving end of my volatility (excludes training chums, i am pretty hot-tempered on court).. and im really sorry to that person.. you know who you are. sigh. of all people to get this shit from me, its you. sometimes i really dont know what the hell im thinking when i say the things i say.. and when you say something you just cant take it back. ive been there before.. and back.. and back again.. and i just dont seem to learn do i?
i really need to learn how to keep my feelings in check.. especially my temper.. argh. i dont want to still be left on the shelf when im 37 =( new month's resolution: close my eyes and count to ten when i get pissed off. so if you see me with my eyes shut and muttering, you know whats going on..
wednesday, 31.1.07 09:02 p.m.
anyway i just got back from the doctor's.. to get my exemption letter for NAPFA cos of my bad back. and i waited from 7.05 to 8.15 for my turn.. havent i lots of patience? while waiting i read the dec 2006 issue of Seventeen with my p1 classmate jayne tham as covergirl and miss seventeen 2006.. 3 issues of newsweek (!!!) and half an issue of 8 days from dunno when.. but it had the top 8 singapore idol finalists. quite long ago i suppose. and i found out that singapore idol isnt having a third season? ha ha ha ha!! losers!! american idol is wayyyy wAYYYYY better. except for the time when they voted out chris daughtry i suppose.. boo. anyway, i waited ten million years for my turn, and when i walked out the clinic my bus 77 zoomed by so i had to walk in =( poor me.
yilin's birthday this saturday.. lois's next thursday. i am so jealous! i want to be 18 toooo.. k got to bathe and do homework toods
monday, 29.1.07 09:26 p.m.
had a great dinner at darrell's house yesterday. auntie ruth's popiahs are the best! and her macaroni soup too. had an o-k-a-y dinner at home today (my mum is a newbie cook).. i'll rate it a pass.
too busy too busy to do anything..yet i still have time to use to comp? haha. i hate my shoulder! and i have nothing to say so i shall advertise for my sister's online jewellery shop. she uses genuine vintage stuff only, not like those people who call their stuff "brand new vintage"... hello that doesnt even make sense. and she uses gold-filled wire and chains and earring backings too. hence the prices.. anyway, its:
http://pequitobun.etsy.com
her bunny is called pequito remember? act cute siaz. anyway again, her stuff is super nice.. but also pricey. and its in USD too.. haha. can still buy if youre interested though :) valentines day is coming, boys!
wednesday, 24.1.07 05:31 p.m.
my sister wants to get this cat:
so scary T.T its a maine coon. and the males can grow up to real large sizes.. but this is an anomaly la. i think this cat is even bigger than my dog tiger was.. eeyer. and it looks really sinister. but anyway the cat has to be imported from australia for over 1000SGD. anyone wants to contribute to my sister's kitty fund?
i was feeling sick today and came home and slept from 1130am-415pm.. haha. its good to be able to fully sleep away my tiredness for a change. i missed tryouts today but theyll be on on friday again. besides, theres training after and i still cant spike because my shoulder hurts like crazy. maybe i should really take a GOOD rest for 2 weeks.. but what if it still doesnt recover after that =( i hate being injured.
saturday, 20.1.07 09:54 p.m.
-feel like blogging in point form today
-got sunburnt during training though it stormed twice (it was hot in the morning)
-am craving teh ping
-just did a pore pack on my nose and it was really satisfying
-want to watch apocalypto
-am pretty tired right now
-have lots of work to do.. and sats next sat so im looking forward to a day of hardcore studying tomorrow
-had an overload of volleyball this week
-still love volleyball, however
-am beginning to irritate myself now by blogging in point form
-am going to take part in the commonwealth essay writing competition for fun!
-got pissed off today
-still am craving a teh ping quite badly
-want new clothes and am looking forward to cny
-am thinking of someone right now.. but who says it has to be a boy?
thursday, 18.1.06 08:51 p.m.
schools been pretty alright i guess.. work is piling up a little bit but still can get away with that. haha. been getting home at like 9-10pm the past few days due to sports psychology talk and training and post training dinners.. training has been pretty sucky thanks to my shitty shoulder.. ive just about had it with my shoulder already lor. its pissing me off.. i cant train properly. and i cant rest because.. i cant rest. ok now im hearing yilin's voice quoting the sports talk and saying it takes as much (or more?) discipline to take a break from training as it does/than to start training again ok my word usage got problem. cant remember the exact ones la sorry.. anyway the point is. guess its quite true. i cant stop training cos im... in a groove now.. haha. i dont want to stop! but neither do i want to wind up handicapped for nationals. i swear i'll still play even if my shoulder falls off. i'll just need lots of courage and hope and a ton of painkillers.. and general anaesthesia.. ya i know thats the coma one la.
cant really think of what to say now. the long breaks between successive entries seem to have stunted my usual coherence.. when i have lots to say that is. anyway, just now i was reading the feb issue of glamour.. and there was an article showing 7 love letters (cos its a month with valentine's day in it) and the letters were really sweet.
hmmm. ive decided that the next time i get into a relationship i must be head over heels in love first. and my boyfriend must not be ashamed to write me letters dripping with mushy romantic stuff. and he must be tall and smell nice and have a just nice build. and not be giam siap. i know i always emphasize the traits of my ideal guy.. haha.. maybe im secretly advertising for one.. hee hee.. no la not so desperate. studies first!! ok volleyball first. studies second!!
okay enough rubbish. i dreamt of tiger just now.. in it he was super super happy to see me and jumped onto my lap. tiger i miss you too..
saturday, 13.1.06 10:12 a.m.
love you lots :) im too lazy to blog so... sorry la
saturday, 6.1.06 09:53 p.m.
i had a great day! i spent it playing volleyball with rj alumni.. lcs darrell jason umay yenping and zhihao are all part of rj alumni now ..too bad for them. anyway i played like 7 games and i feel super bad having played so many cos priya and yilin didnt play! argh.. anyway my shoulder isnt too good now. my sis told my to sleep with my arm stretched straight outwards against my pillow.. she said it'll make my shoulder alright if i do that for awhile. i tried! but when i wake up in the middle of the night im in my usual foetal position again.. guess i feel cold..? anyway back to the topic. i love saturday volleyball.. and the thought of gaining experience makes the whole thing even better. there were some games today where i played on a team of all guys and me and also against a team of all guys only...... i know if i keep playing against them i will be the most fearless person on earth. honestly.. some of the serves and spikes can really kill people one la. gulp.
i really love volleyball alot now and i think im beginning to live for trainings.. days without training seem super sian to me now. and i hope i dont sound boastful or anything but i think im improving.. and that helps my confidence level on court a whole lot. yay! what a boring entry. i am now either going to sleep or going to do homework. decisions, decisions....
tuesday, 2.1.07 11:17 p.m.
im pretty excited about the first day of school tomorrow actually. this feeling is a yearly thing.. and i believe it'll be the last time i feel this way? cos the second day of school is going to be a drag and i can just feel it. but no! this isnt the way to start a new year. especially not the way to start a new A level year.. uhhuh.. im definitely looking forward to my daily dose of teh ping from stall 2, hearing jenn's laughter every two seconds in class, sitting at the table every morning just hanging out with my favouritest people.. oh and the workload of course. whats not to miss about the workload? anyway i bought new pretty files so i am happy to put my worksheets in them. haha.
i got food poisoning on new year's eve and puked 9 times in the bangkok airport and on the plane home.. just had to complain. aint exactly very well yet but i believe i'll be fine tomorrow! alright got lots of stuff to do so cant chat.
have a great first day at school! =)
monday, 1.1.07 11:20 p.m.
i dont know what i want to do with my life.. i honestly dont. ive considered things like journalism, but is that the path i really want to take? i dont think i write well enough to be a journalist.. or rather, i dont read enough. because im too lazy to... ive let this laziness thing get in my way much too often. although i havent lived very long, i do know that ive passed up many opportunities to bring me to greater heights simply because ive never put in the extra effort to push myself to work harder. i can honestly say ive never lived up to my expectations.
since this year is do or die.. i will make a promise. i promise that for once in my life, i will make myself proud. and i will do it.. because i have to. and although i dont believe new year resolutions ever hold true, i hope that the year will mould me into a better person. i hope that i will treasure all relationships with friends and family, have the courage to do what's right, have the determination to get through to the end, press on when times get tough. most importantly, to live up to my expectations. and be happy.
here's to a great new year.
saturday, 30.12.06 09:52 p.m.
right now we're in khao san and i just got a very nice nail art manicure for just 6 sing dollars it is SOOO wu hua i tell you. today we walked in chatuchak market for 5 hours.. i bought some stuff but not very much though. but there were super super cute puppies and bunnies and kitties.. i carried a big saint bernard puppy which was 51 days old. it was quite huge but still carryable and it smelled like powder... i love it to bits T_T upload pictures when i get back!
the weather here has been super fantastic and cooling, so unlike singapore. it hasnt rained AT ALL. and at night its actually quite cold.. i have been sharing a bed with my second sis and her boyfriend darrell so i am a big dian deng pao but who cares? the bed is huge.. its like king of king sizes. but the hotel is really pok.. i dont even dare to take photos of us in it at all cos it gives me a creepy feeling. oh well nomore such mention about it being creepy cos i'll be stay6ing there one more night.... gulp.
last day tmr =( be seeing you guys~! muaksss
wednesday, 27.12.06 10:18 p.m.
i'll be off to bangkok tomorrow morning! while everyone prepares themselves for the end of the holidays, the highlight of mine begins.. haha. im going to make sure that i shop till i drop dead. and get a manicure (ive been keeping my nails super long hahaha) and ten million cheap massages.. and ten million cheap whatevers.. chatuchak night market!! yay!!! i'll be going with my parents, my sisters and their boyfriends... which means im the obvious odd one out. oh well.. i'll go find myself a hot thai guy there.. k maybe not.
havent been going online these few days cos my sis and her boyfriend are always asleep so early and i dont want to wake them up with the loud clicking sounds of the keyboard keys.. so i sleep early too. christmas was great.. i had great company throughout the evening and night. haha. will be back on new year's eve at 8pm. my girlfriends~ loisy grace ruth val chelps please organise something so that when i touchdown i have somewhere to go!! yayyyy
okay i sound totally like an airhead tonight. for some reason my vision is quite blurry.. probably cos i watched tv just now. hmmmm.. anyway as some food for thought, my dad told me this some time ago.. its something donald trump said.
1. there are some things you know that you dont know
2. there are some things you dont know that you know
3. there are some things that you know that you dont know that you know..
damn act cheem right! but actually it makes sense if you can wrap your brain around these things and take them apart and think super deeply. okay la dont have to be too deep.
oh lastly, if your internet connection is screwy today, its cos there was an earthquake in taiwan and it upset the internet connection in the region like singapore.. hongkong.. malaysia.. ya. so dont panic and dont throw your comp away yet.. and maybe watch the news next time you ignoramuses
friday, 22.12.06 02:37 a.m.
just got back from picking my sis and her boyfriend from the airport after coming from volleyball chalet.. which has been super fun! ive been laughing almost non stop from playing card games.. ps2.. watching movies.. just talking to everyone and just everything la. we watched the benchwarmers and hostel last night.. or rather this morning.. the hostel is some sick porno psychotic show man. so please watch it only if you derive pleasure from watching body parts being slowly sawed off and eyeballs being burnt out till they dangle off a single vein.. yeah. and lots of porn. there is sort of a link between the porn and the gore but the porno parts are obviously the selling points of the movie cos theres no substance no storyline no nothing.... and this is turning into a movie review so i shall change the topic.
we slept at 7am this morning and yilin and me and chelsea woke up at 9am to eat macs breakfast then we went back to sleep till 12.. and then we played ps2 for the whole afternooooon. i like bishi bashi!! but i really suck at it.. but even watching people play it can make me laugh like mad. the games are damn fun to watch... especially the perm hair game hahahahah i wanna laugh just thinking about it....
me and yilin found kittens! shall post photos when she sends me online.. they were only 1 week old and their eyes havent opened yet sooooo super cute.. and they like me!! i think. because they were so content lying on my belly. haha.
my sis and her boyfriend camilo will be here for 3 weeks... and my second sis will be back on the 24th from her exchange in canada!!! yay finally i wont be home alone anymore :) we're going shopping tomorrow yay!!!!!! alright going to sleep already byeee i am happy now :)
tuesday, 19.12.06 11:05 p.m.
this morning i got up at 7 to go for training.. i braved the rain to reach the market at 730 to have breakfast with lois.. then she was still asleep -.- then i realised i had no money -.- -.- then i went back home to eat.. then training was cancelled -.- -.- -.- well at least i wasnt on the way to school i guess.. so i went back and slept till 11.
then i wento orchard to meet lois and sherlyn.. and we wento billy bombers to eat. the waitress was super weird la. first she said "ok.. now i'll repeat my order.." which is okay i suppose. cos shes helping us order... then later lois and i wanted to share a burger so we asked for an extra plate. then she gave us a teacup saucer. ... right.. and then lois spilt the oreo milkshake on the table and it was quite a mess, then we asked her to help us clean up.. then she handed lois 2 serviettes. WEIRDO!!! then poor sherlyn had to rush home cos her mum and sis had no housekey.. so lois and i watched eragon by ourselves. i liked the show alot!! i decided that i like the lead guy. forgot his name.. as in real name la. stage name is eragon of course.
conversation of the day....
lois and i were walking outside the heeren and it was raining super super heavily so i put my arm around her shoulder so we could squeeze under my tiny umbrella..
lois: eh we look quite les(bian) leh
me: ..you'd rather be les or wet?
lois: i rather be less wet...
funny sia~~~~ anyway my stomach is feeling weird for the third day running. maybe ive been eating too much junk. anyway.. im tired. see you.. volleyball chalet tomorrow! yay... i think.
monday, 18.12.06 09:01 p.m.
wasnt in a very good mood for the second half of the day after i wento the sinseh... i dunno. for some reason my mum just irritated me a hell lot. like everything she said was just jabbing at my nerves.. then i got home and took a nap and woke up at 7 to watch the last episode of the soya sauce show and the tv was spoilt. ........ i always follow a show till the end and miss the last episode. it's happened at least 6 times..
then i cooked dinner (!!) cos my mum's hand was wrapped up cos her finger keeps getting stuck in a bent position cos she spends too many hours on the computer playing her mahjong no im not kidding.. and im totally a newbie and she just kept giving me vague instructions and i was getting really frustrated because she assumes i know how to do things in sequence argh argh argh aiya not in a good mood now. bye
friday, 15.12.06 11:08 a.m.
T_T
tuesday, 12.12.06 09:24 p.m.
this is the most crucial period of time for training and i just have to wind up with a new injury every other training. as if my lousy back werent enough, i now i have to deal with a shitty knee and a busted shoulder. honestly, i feel really helpless and frustrated. plus my dad just lectured me about how i'll never get well if i dont quit playing volleyball. and that acupuncture is only a temporary measure. im so angry with myself but being angry doesnt help anything at all. and while priya's away and shinjung's injured ive kind of stepped up to organise things around here.
and its sure not an easy task. for one, our teacher in charge is a dickhead. i dont care if you read this. okay i do care if you read this. just because my testimonial is at stake, i shant type your name here. but you know who you are anyway. and i think its really stupid how hes being so sticky about the stupid MOE regulations. we cant hold official trainings during the december holidays?? fine. you won't help us book indoor courts?? fine. we aren't allowed to book the weights room either?? fine. just leave us to die won't you? the badminton teacher in charge helped them book the bloody indoor courts. and when i told you that via sms because you're holidaying halfway around the globe, you DID NOT REPLY. and i happen to know that you have roaming because you replied my first sms requesting very politely for you to contact mr ortega for the booking of indoor courts because the sun sucks. and which your reply was bursting with hostility about how we're not supposed to have official trainings. tell me something new please?? i think there is a time to abide by the rules. but i also think there is a time for you to try and understand and sympathise with the cca youre in charge of. our nationals is in 4 bloody months. or less. and all youre doing is telling us that we cant train in december.
fuck you. we have enough to deal with around here already.
sunday, 10.12.06 10:09 p.m.
this week has been eventful...
but i dont feel like i have anything to say about it...
shall blog again soon.
sunday, 3.12.06 10:41 p.m.
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this girl is some sicko man!! EWWW YUCK!! sanjiaoku is like panties.. and shes selling them with her smell on it. what a bargain man. 50 BUCKS MAN..i shall bid on them.. and hope my sincerity will move her...
sunday, 3.12.06 09:27 p.m.
my hand smell crabby now cos i ate hairy crab.. and i dont have lemons or limes at home so i washed my hands with citrus listerine. haha smells WEIRD..
okay my shortage of conversational topics is rather limited today. i went to vivocity for the first time with my parents.. i got the cd ive been looking for for a long time.. and i bought chocolates from chocolat factory (/100g) damn yummy la. i chose that over godiva truffles (/100g) so my dad's pocket wont hurt so much.. okay i really havent eaten godiva chocolates before. close your mouth!! im just suaku and deprived la ok.....=(
training tomorrow... hooray! i love training now.. i just feel very motivated to improve.. which is a great thing. haha i havent been so on since the early judo days.. or sec 1 volleyball days.. we must train hard man. i want to be of nationals standard soon! bye~
tuesday, 28.11.06 10:30 p.m.
chelps and me were talking on the way home about stuff. topic of the day was boys/boyfriends/potential boyfriends/rejects/ideal husbands? haha. one thing i remember off the top of my head is how tiring it is to like someone. its nice to have someone who makes you smile without even trying.. but its also very sickening when your mood becomes dictated by the person's actions.
-sms from the person happy!
-seeing the person happy!
-no news from the person for awhile sad :(
-not seeing the person sad :(
-seeing the person with...a GIRL sad :( and possibly angry >:(
aiya you get the picture. its damn irritating.. i dont want to like anybody anymore! unless the person fulfils all 5999 of my requirements.. ha ha joking.. there are only 5998. okay still joking. but since im on the topic i shall reveal some of the basic requirements chelps and i came up with:
1. not smelly this is serious stuff. no smelly boys tolerated.. not even if you look like nicholas tse. okay nvm thats a special case....
2. not giam if you are giam with your own girlfriend, please go roll in cow dung, slap yourself ten million times with a spikey hairbrush and jump off the grand canyon. no sorry, thats too good for you
3. same intelligence.. no more no less cleverer than me= make me feel stupid. stupider than me... then i'll have to spend the rest of my life trying to convince him that he isnt dumb
nomore already la. got summore but thats my own secret requirements.. tell everyone then not fun already. tee hee. i wonder what kind of requirements guys have. i bet i know... long hair/big boobs/ -.-
okay im tired. bye!
monday, 27.11.06 09:34 p.m.
anyway i met another jigopek today.. T_T i was at the eating place near my house with chelps.. and we were talking about something and i replied "yeahhh" to her (got extra h's cos i dragged it).. then out of the orange (cos he was wearing an orange shirt, not blue) this uncle appeared behind chelsea and mimicked my "yeahhh" then he grinned in the most selang way possible and walked to the other side of his van. EW!! omg.. then later on we walked past him to go to the other shops and he grinned at me again.
know what this is? looks like a cute pawprint thingy right. youre WRONG. its brass knuckles. you put your fingers through the small holes and clench your fist. then you punch whoever you dont like.. its pointy and hard and painful as hell. not that ive experienced its usage... but from now on i am going to arm myself. but i think these are banned in singapore though. hee hee hee i will find a way to get them.
i finally cut my nails! thats why i need a new weapon.
saturday, 25.11.06 01:09 p.m.
happy birthday yesterday~! muaks. anyway i gave you longer lashes, some eyeliner and pink eyeshadow.. and i also made your pupils larger. as pretty as xiaxue now man.... haha joking. dont need digital enhancement also very pretty! hope you like the birks :)
im pretty free now so i decided to describe my morning in detail.. this morning i got my first facial ever.. it was pretty shiok.. save for the blackhead squeezing part. that was bloody painful la.. T_T then after that i went to the bookstore and borrowed zen and the art of motorcycle maintenance. ms han my sec 3 lit teacher whom im still quite close to recommended it.. i'll comment on it when im done reading.. looks pretty good. anyway i had 15 bucks on me and i spent 14 borrowing the book.. so i had left for lunch.. plus 30c in my wallet.. then i walked across the road and bought 1 plain and 1 cheese prata and an iced milo. i love cheese prata.. its one of my favourite foods now. tau huay too. before this my food craze was cheezels.. and before that it was calbee prawn crackers. wonder whats next.
so after eating the bill was .40.. i had a choice. i could either use 2 of my orange notes i'd been keeping.. their serial numbers are in running order too. cos theyre from the same stack.. or i could use my chipped 20c coin. ive been keeping that for a long time! it looks like someone bit it.. and i always have to be careful so i wouldnt accidentally spend it. in the end i decided that my chipped 20c coin was more valuable than the orange notes.. anyway i have one more orange note left. i chose to keep the note with the number CU914460 and gave the indian man CU914458 and CU914459..
and then i walked home cos i missed my bus.. i walked home for 5 bus stops. and i sang jay chou songs all the way home.. i realised that walking and singing at the same time is very difficult cos youll get out of breath. or maybe its cos my stamina sucks. haha.. this kind of sounded like a p1 essay.. oh well. i am tired!
wednesday, 22.11.06 10:04 p.m.
it all started when me and chelsea were at the j8 busstop waiting for 156.. then i hugged my shoebag. my hands were crossed on either arms.. then suddenly someone touched my right hand which was resting on my left upper arm. i thought it was someone i knew.. but when i looked at the person.. it was some weirdo with a moustache that looked like it grew out during puberty and had never been shaved off... then he grinned and said ni3 de3 shou3 hao3 ruan3 ok everything is in di san sheng.. for those chinese noobs it means he said that MY HAND IS VERY SOFT. omg... me and chelsea were so stunned that we didnt react for 5 seconds. by then that fellow walked quite far away already. disgusting!! he touched my hand!!! god knows what he's done using that hand... T_T.. im scarred for life....
and today's weather was irritating. rain. stop. rain. stop. rain. stop. rain. stop. and you get the idea. the poor beatty people came down and had to leave without playing our friendly match.. oh well. our ego would have gotten a severe beating if we played against them anyway.. our asses would have been kicked by 15 and 16 year olds. good rain! but the rain was still irritating. ok going to watch project runway soon bye~
thursday, 16.11.06 09:39 p.m.
then i rolled up the paper and scooped it onto the end of the paper and flung it out.... yay!! victory!! ok evidently thats the highlight of my day... no la. had training again today (3rd time this week man!) got friendly with australian school tomorrow.. hope there are hot guys! then sunday got match with ORA.. uh.. sure yi bai tu di one... but theres a free dinner at least.
me and chelps had lunch with umay at sucky sakae sushi.. i prefer sushi tei ten million times over man.
aiya feel lazy to continue typing. my sister is matchmaking me with her handsome lebanese friend when she comes back.. hes 19.. tee heee bye!
wednesday, 15.11.06 09:59 p.m.
today had a cafe cartel lunch with grace.. where we shared a baked chicken and mushroom pasta.. i always eat that. but i will never eat it again cos i bit into a piece of chicken and there was a loud crack sound in my mouth.. some hard bony bit! as hard as a diamond lo. my tooth still hurts now! and its the tooth with two cavity fillings.. the poor tooth has been through so much..
then we went for training and it started storming just as we stepped into school.. how heng? as in heng that we dint really get wet.. not heng that it was raining. we're no slackers.... but after the rain stopped the weather was super nice and the sky was blue and there were clouds all over and couldnt see a tiny dot of sun at all. and it was cooling and windy. it was great! we wanted training to last forever..hahahaha jokes. plus we played well today too. so shuang xi lin men.. hope tomorrow's weather is just as nice. and next training's. and next next training's. and next next next training's.. you get the idea..
the funniest thing is, i got mildly burnt today. as in my cheeks are warm and slightly redder than usual.. ok no snide remarks here please. i know UV rays are strong but.. man thats scary. ok bye!
wednesday, 14.11.06 12:13 a.m.
stolen indirectly from gayle ow.
this is getting addictive.
1.Ever been given a ring? no =( only the rgs one..
2. Longest relationship? grace says with God so i say with family..
3. Last gift you received?er.. i dont know.
4. How many times have you dropped your cell? less than 5 times. quite good already.
5. Last sport you played? volleyball yesterday, volleyball tomorrow
6. Things you spend a lot of money on?my answer is food also. we're the foodie gang
7. Thing you ate last? willy wonka's whipple scrumptious caramel delight
8. First thing you notice about the opposite sex? hair
9. One favorite song? blind by lifehouse
10. Where do you live? singapore
11. Last relationship? eww
12. Cell phone service provider? singtel
13. Favorite mall store? muji
14. Longest job held? na
15. Do you own a pair of dice? i own 1 round dice which has unfortunately explored the inside of kenny's mouth once before
16. Do you prank call people? nomore already.. really
17. Last person who text messaged you? chelsea
18. First FRIEND you'd call if you won a lottery? my parents
19. Last time you attended church? a few weeks ago..
20. Favorite fast food restaurant? MOS too for their fabulous iced milk teas
21. Last incoming call? my ma
22. Last time you got drunk? never got drunk before man. im good
23. Where's your favorite place to eat with friends?
pizza hut.. i like their pizza crusts.. very crispy and nice
24. Can you cook? i will be able to one day. but hey i did well in home econs
25. What car do you drive? tell you next year
26. Last time u cried? today when i choked on my own saliva.. i teared alot. counted?
27. Most hated food? durians hands down. and parsley! EW
28. Thing you like most about yourself? my height..
29. Things you hate most about yourself? loads..i have low self esteem..
30. Last time you had an argument? i actually cant remember.
31. Favorite Movie? movieS.. anastasia, the longest yard and my sassy girl.
32. Name all the races of the people that you've been with? i havent had any interracial experiences....
33. Last movie rented? Wet Dreams also.. we watched together ma.
34. Favorite alcoholic drinks? i like champagne...
35. Favorite perfume? mine! anna sui dolly girl on the beach.. and i like hugo boss energise for guys.
36. What are you thinking at the moment? thinking of what im thinking so i can type it here?
sunday, 12.11.06 09:06 p.m.
then we played anti-monopoly
which is monopoly basically. but the rules say not to play it like monopoly. so anyway, 2 players are the competitors (jenn and miss chiang) and the other 2 are the monopolists (me and rach).. so the aim of the game is to prevent the monopolists from monopolizing the entire place.. cos monopolists earn double the rent that competitors earn when you land on their property. and the competitors get to go into price wars when they kena the card from the stack (although we never found out how the price wars work..) the scenarios you draw from the stack are all damn econs la.. like a company fails and you get to collect . ha ha ha!! i was the winner in the end. i owned 3 of the railroads (although it was US bus service, US airline and US railroad in the game..) plus both of the most expensive properties.. Wall St. and Fifth Ave in New York. haha we played till 4am.. then we were zonked and kept talking about wanton mee so we went to sleep. me rachel and jenn slept on jenn's bed (i slept in between them) and miss chiang slept on the mattress..
koped some photos from jenn hee hee
then in the morning jenn and rachel went to church and i directed miss chiang to fei fei wanton mee yay! but we ate at the newer stall.. which sucked today. no quality control man.. so disappointing. bet miss chiang's never going back again.. haha. then she brought me to eat peanut ice kachang at her house downstairs.. it was great! and i went to her house too.. 20th floor abit scary.. plus her window got no grilles.. haha.
ok my phone camera is clogged with dust but i cant clean it. so its very unclear..
this car was next to ours in miss chiang's carpark. my god.. the owner is freaking mad. bet he likes sonic the hedgehog..or durians.. he pasted bloody.. doorstoppers.. all over his car la! so ugly and uncool.
i slept the rest of the day away today when i got back. bye!
wednesday, 8.11.06 09:21 p.m.
01. I've always been a loner. no way
02. Pretty girls make me squeal. pretty boys do..
03. I love long hair on guys. depends on how long long is..?
04. I'm second in my class. second..last..? T_T
05. I have a bad habit of using faces. :( how can you say that >_< :p. ok fine thats just irritating =(.
06. I have multiple eating disorders. yeah i eat too much junk.
07. I hate when people pretend to be bi in order to be trendy. x100
08. I hate the phrase "metro sexual."
09. My goal in life is to travel. hope i can visit every continent before i die..
10. kyo. void question
11. I detest children over the age of 3
12. I'm still a child at heart. no way. im all grownup
13. I'm the best at ping pong. jenn is.. she went for SEAgames!we're good friends so we are one..
14. I was in love with Johnny Depp before anyone even considered making The Pirates of the Caribbean. no
15. Pink is one of the best colors. only if youre hello kitty
16. I am pro-choice. sorry but whats that.
17. No offense, but I'm sick of seeing Jack Sparrow icons.got meh?
18. People say I have no body fat, but oh, are they wrong ok fine. some people say im fat.
19. I prefer being single. :( no i dont
20. I am a jealous person. just insecure i guess.
21. I hate criticism, even though it helps me more than I think it does.
22. I don't know how to respond to compliments. i'm shy..
23. I love writing, even though I think my writing is terrible. so true.
24. I wear a ton of makeup. no way.. thats suffocating your skin
25. I look at everyone's AIM info every time theyre online, even though they rarely change.
26. I also read everyone's away messages.
27. I have been known to play video games for unhealthy amounts of time. i used to be hooked on the sims
28. I am passionate about all of my interests.
29. I hate people who hold strong opinions on things they know nothing about. bloody irritating shits
30. I hate it when people look over my shoulder. YES. get your own book/magazine. stop reading mine
31. I don't like what I look like.
32. I'm a grammar-nazi.
33. I procrastinate. like hell
34. I hate DragonBall Z.
35. I sleep too little.
36. Je parle le francais. non..
37. I am obsessed with making journal icons.
38. I eat more junk food than regular food. :(
39. I think Xanga is the best journal site out there.
40. In fact... I really dislike LJ.
41. I cry over everything. yucks..sissies
42. A lot of people in my school dislike me. no way :(
43. I complain about everything. sometimes only
44. I have a very high-pitched voice. no way!
45. I squeak a lot, involuntarily, and often get made fun of for it.
46. I'm indecisive. extremely.. sorry friends
47. It makes me mad when things I like become trendy. just annoyed..
48. I could live off of sushi. i only like cucumber sushi without the cucumber..
49. I have a lot more money than do most of my friends.
50. I like girls with dark hair. cos i have dark hair
51. No one listens to the same music as me
52. It is a proven fact that I prefer talking to people online if they use complete sentences and correct grammar/punctuation. not proven fact la. so act cool. but its true
53. It's easier than most would expect to make me cry. only in movies.. and other things sometimes
54. I'm tired of worrying about shit.
55. I correct others' spelling/grammar quite often.sorry =( i know its irritating
56. I don't play any team sports for my school.
57. I want to go to Japan. ive only been in the airport.. i want amagurichan and kogepan things..
58. I hate sounding obsessed with a musical artist.
59. I like it when my friends write me letters, it makes me feel special. doesnt everyone?
60. I never want to get married.
61. I like PIRATES!
62. I hate any alcoholic drinks.
63. I prefer urban life over rural life. never experienced rural life.. but i dont like mosquitoes..
64. I'm obsessed with fashion.
65. I like to make my own clothes.
66. My grades are very important to me.
67. Contrary to popular belief, I don't hate everyone.
68. I hate a lot of people.
69. Androgyny is sexy. :)
71. I rant too much.
72. I hog the covers.
73. I'm online a lot. I have no life. i dont dare to bold this
74. I am a good judge of character. shit la. im damn bad at it
75. I find it difficult to be friends with stupid people. how to when im one of them...
76. I am obsessed with anime. i only like bleach
77. I like to read a lot. i just dont have many books. lazy to borrow
78. I can be really mean when I want to. like grace says, who cannot?
79. I can also be more thoughtful than a lot of people. i really think so lor.
80. I always try to help others as much as I can. i do!
81. I'm very extremely irritable.
82. I've never cheated in school, and I hate people that do.
83. I've never cheated in a relationship, and if anyone ever cheated on me, he would never get a second chance. but see how he apologises first.. and he will be punished
84. My parents are divorced.
85. Narrow minded people make me want to get a gun. a machine gun. and a new brain
86. I have a stepmother.
87. I love ice cream. huh grace doesnt?!
88. I haven't watched The Sound of Music yet. please shoot yourself if you havent.
89. I hate people that cut to be trendy, and I think it's just crazy that there are people who only do that to be cool. whats cut to be trendy?
90. I hate having the feeling that I'm not going to go anywhere in life.
91. I don't like crowds. there are many smelly smells in crowded places
92. I hate people that think the mall is the root of all evil. It's just a place. Get over it. got such people?
93. I'm not as much of a TV addict as I used to be.
94. Most of my friends hate Bush haha he really waved at us from his limo on the way to shangri-la hotel..we were having volleyball training in rgs!
95. I am better at keeping secrets than are most of my friends. not really.. but im much better now ok
96. I'm a lazy ass. so are most of my friends..
97. I love my parents, but never know how to show them. just cos my mum reads my blog. even though i told her to stop.
98. I am not yet in college, or am I going back soon.
99. I have no idea where I'd like to go to college. though Harvard would be nice. i like the campus
100. I wish there were more questions, I’m on a roll. its the end already?? boo
tuesday, 7.11.006 09:49 p.m.
45 of the most random things you probably never needed to know about someone..
whats your name spelt backwards?nylarehs
What did you do last night?: had a steak dinner with my dad's overseas guests then had tiramisu for dessert and came home and did I&R for 1.5 hours then wento sleep
The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?: the sample I&R.. same as gerry
Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?: i'll do that when ive run out of things to do in this world Last time you swam in a pool?: believe this.. during OBS in sec 3
What are you wearing?: black rg judo shirt and pink striped pajama pants.. mismatched but everyones unglam at home right?!
How many cars have you owned?: 0
Type of music you dislike most?: black metal heavy metal death metal anything metal and techno
Are you registered to vote?: nope
Do you have cable?: no T_T i want..
What kind of computer do you use?: hp pavilion f50 with hp pavilion 8986 CPU
Ever made a prank phone call?: yes..... sorry =(
You like anyone right now?: sure i do.
Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?: bungee jumping..no..not after i watched the video of the bungee guy being chomped up by a crocodile. skydiving sounds exciting but im scared of heights leh
Furthest place you ever traveled?: is canada further than boston?
What's your favorite comic strip?: foxtrot!! and baby blues. i hate garfield and snoopy, just for the record
Do u know all the words to the national anthem?: yes i do
Shower, morning or night?: never in the morning.. very cold
Best movie you've seen in the past month?: THE COVENANT for the hot guys.. but you me &dupree for the everything
Favorite pizza toppings?: cheese and ham. not too much tomato sauce and pineapples.. i dont like
Chips or popcorn?: chips any day.. popcorn got the unpopped kernels so hard can break teeth one
What cell phone provider do you have?: singtel (L)
Have you ever smoked peanut shells?: ok i always see this question. i need to know what it means NOW
Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?: never..
Orange Juice or apple?: apple juice.. i cant take orange juice it bites my tongue. actually apple juice bites too but orange bites harder.. painful
Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?: didnt really eat lunch today.. but alot of junk. chelsea and gerry!
Favorite chocolate bar?: like gerry, i love marks and spencer's mint truffle bars.. the praline ones are super also..
Who is your longest friend and how long?: lois tan we wen.. er..12 years? since we were 5...
Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?: i dont like tomatoes
Have you ever won a trophy?: yesss 1st runner up in judo kyu grade 2004~ yay
Favorite arcade game?: street fighter and puzzle bobble
Ever ordered from an infomercial?: many years ago we bought a glove that was spiky on the palm part.. to brush tiger's hair
Sprite or 7-UP?: 7up.. i think the difference is only psychological though.
Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?: duh
Last thing you bought at Walgreens?: i will change this to 7eleven.. nissin tom yam seafood cup noodles. but i always throw away the dried crabsticks and veggies yucks
Ever thrown up in public?: if a car is a public place then yes.. when i was 3.. we were driving up the genting hill and going round and round
Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?: finding a true millionaire love...
Do you believe in love at first sight?: no.. handsome boys are all sucky and players so beware
SPONGEBOB OR JIMMY NEUTRON?: relax man.. dont shout.. i like spongebob even though the whole world likes him until he has become irritating
Did you have long hair as a young kid?: until i was 6 only
What message is on your voicemail machine?: dont have leh
Where would you like to go right now?: right into someone's arms. haha joking. ..fine not really
Whats the name of your pet?: tiger was and is and always will be my favourite pet.. i miss him
What kind of backpack do you have, and what's in it?: i only carry a hand-me-down fcuk denim bag which i have stained.. one purple marker and one green highlighter patch.. inside is my ipod, wallet, key, rubbish receipts.. rubbish paper and wrappers, some small holes... sorry baggy i do love you~
saturday, 4.11.06 03:23 p.m.
i watched the covenant with grace and ruthy yesterday. steven strait is the hottest guy ive seen since 1989... and ive decided that if i cant marry him i wont marry anyone else. his eyes! his eyebrows..his nose..his lips..his backside chin (i know its called a cleft chin. but i like calling it backside chin so there.)..his HOT HOT muscley bod.. his deep voice.. and he's a mummy's boy and he's charming and chivalrous and brave.. well thats in the show. but everything he does looks so real i believe its true in real life too.
i'm in love.. honestly. why arent there guys like that in singapore?? geez. i am going to marry an ang moh man.
tuesday, 31.10.06 11:20 a.m.
monday, 30.10.06 09:29 p.m.
A hiccup or hiccough is an involuntary spasm of the diaphragm; typically this repeats several times a minute. The sudden rush of air into the lungs causes the glottis to close, creating the "hic" listen noise. A bout of hiccups generally resolves by itself, although many home remedies are in circulation to shorten the duration, and medication is occasionally necessary.The medical term is singultus.
The Guinness World Record for the longest continuous bout of hiccups (1922–1990) goes to Charles Osborne (1894–1991) from Anthon, Iowa. The hiccups started in 1922 at a rate of 40 times per minute, slowing to 20 and eventually stopping in February 1990 – a total of 68 years.
yikes.. i dont want to end up like charles! im holding my breath now to make it go away.. if i pass out somebody please find me.
anyway i am also sad because i was watching so you think you can dance just now for the first time in 2 or 3 weeks and i saw stanislav dance.. and i just decided that i liked him and was gonna support him from next episode onwards.. and boom he got kicked out. same as when i watched this season's project runway for the first time. i decided i was going to like malan cos hes british and alone and sounded pitiful.. and he got kicked out in the same episode. -.-
thats damn irritating la... stanislav looks like clay aiken!! and his solo dance was how captivating and sexy and like dynamite.. okay so i have a sissy guy fetish. i loveLOVELOVE austin from project runway season 1.. i love daniel vosovic.. and now i liked stanislav. i find sissy guys attractive! not all though. just those few on tv.
my favourite sissy boys.. oh well i suppose austin does look a tad too gay there.. but hes cute!! especially when he modelled for jay cos jay's model julia was late. :)
bye~
saturday, 28.10.06 08:57 p.m.
in a strange mood now.. not from reading the book though. i just feel unsettled, almost sad. a little worried.. mostly unhappy. but i cant pinpoint the reason. or maybe its just cos there are too many reasons..
sometimes it'd just be really nice to know that you really matter to someone. its stupid to doubt that but.. its just nice to know.
the things that go on in someone's head after being cooped up in an unhappy and empty house all day.
thursday, 26.10.06 11:26 p.m.
today i went to a dentist cos ive been having a bad toothache on my right side whenever i eat gummies or marshmallows or soft chewy things.. and the dentist did all these things:
1. take an xray to check for tooth decay
2. give my gum a numbing jab
3 dig out my poorly done filling by the dentist outside my house and filled it in. actually two fillings. on the same tooth =(
4. clean my teeth with lemon flavoured salt (actually its really cool and it whitened my teeth! plus the lemony salty taste was pretty nice)
5. coat all my teeth with a layer of spearmint (yuck) flavoured fluoride
total cost: 4.83
crazy!!!! daylight robbery lo.. fyi, the fluoride thing alone costs SGD. and its pretty useless. my sis told me that.. so when dr. choo said he was gonna put fluoride on my teeth i said "uh.. can dont put? i dont like the taste.." then he said should put cos it will dunnowhat the enamel.. whatever that is.. i think its what your teeth is coated with. 20 bucks for 1cm³ of green paste that tastes like shit spearmint. i hate spearmint!! yeah well anyway, moral of the story: i am going to be a dentist. free money.. woohoo!!
wednesday, 25.10.06 09:51 p.m.
for the big day, he booked some pavilion at the zoo and got all their relatives to come down to celebrate together... and he unveiled a giant cheapo looking poster with the words in wordart font (okay this is getting mean) of their wedding photo blown up. it cost about 200 bucks if i didnt hear wrongly which is totally daylight robbery for such a lousy job.. and earlier on the celebrity hosts and him were out shopping. and they were looking in the jeweller's window.. and he picked out the tiniest diamonds and huang biren was chiding him for it and saying if she were his wife she'd run away.. which i thought was a bit mean but its true. honestly. and in the end his 10th wedding anniversary present to his wife.. in a precious moments box.. contained..... an adidas sportsbra and matching bottom.
kill me before i marry a man like that!! my god. ok i know hes at least bothered to put in the effort.. and she was actually so moved that she teared.. im really stunned la. okay i probably sound really materialistic and superficial and whatnot. but to me, i need to see the effort.. not to mention presents. no matter how small, as long as they show thought and effort. if i didnt get any i'd just feel like i mean nothing to the person. i know that presents arent everything. but to me the presents mean that i mean something to the person, and that the person is willing to fork out time and possibly money to show that he cares and loves me and wants me to be happy. and thats the best part of it.
just my thoughts. was quite stunned by the guy in the show.. but that's true love i guess? but even then... gosh.
sunday, 22.10.06 08:33 p.m.
(blinkies removed due to image host error. spoilsports)
ok blinkie overload......
one more... the one i made and posted in a blog entry awhile back but its all archived and everyones forgotten about it so here it is:
quite nice what! anyone named sheralyn is free to kope it.. anyway grace do i also wanto do..!!
3 things in your wallet?
1. grace's passport-sized photo :)
2. a canadian special edition breast cancer 25c coin
3. pastamania menu i took.. the small one
3 things you always wear?
1. undies
2. a necklace with winnie the pooh's honey pot as a pendant.. my ma bought for me in p6
3. earrings
3 things you do when you are really stressed?
1. talk to people
2. sleep
3. eat
3 things you like to do?
1. eat
2. go out with people and shop
3. play with my hair
3 favorite fruits?
1. mangoes
2. green apples
3. donut peaches. i dont like the normal ones
3 things you are addicted to?
1. teh ping and milk tea. if theres a difference
2. meiji choc covered strawberry gummies
3. calbee prawn crackers.. (all food)
3 favorite hobbies?
1. reading cleo and glamour
2. eating
3. playing the piano
3 goals for 2006?
1. have fun
2. be happy
3. study for SAT(I)
3 goals for 2007?
1. study like mad but still have a life. and DO WELL
2. do the volleyball team proud
3. be happy
3 plans for next 3 weeks?
1. train
2. play
3. go out
3 nicknames you go by:
1. lyn
2. ahlyn (i really dont like this)
3. oi
3 Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. pink pajamas from aunty ruth
2. my specs which i just bent into shape today. i sat on them a few weeks ago by accident and they went out of shape
3. earrings
3 things you want in a relationship:
1. same as grace: love respect & fun
2. happiness
3. tolerance and trust (so thats 6..fine)
3 things about the opposite sex that appeal to you:
1. nice smelling ones only.
2. a nice smile and taller than me (im 1.68 hor.)
3. a lighthearted personality.. and can make me laugh
sunday, 22.10.06 12:30 p.m.
i like this. i took it during the judo bbq when we were in sec 3.. thats yilin and susanta flying their kite. dont know why the whole thing is so blue.. its the actual picture i didnt use any effects.nice.
was reading old emails last night. and i found one which had this in it:
"Non-christians are not right, being a non-christian itself is not right, only God's words hold the truth and meaning in life and what they say is absolute, and they say do not be yoked with those non-christians, i don't care if the world told me it's right, the Bible says it isn't. And you're wrong, being a non-christian makes you totally unworthy and undeserving of anything because you have been offered our heavenly father's love and rejected it."
if i didnt have christian friends like grace chelsea gerry ruth jenn tara etc who'd never think or say such things.. i'd think christians are all a pile of shit. honestly. some people just give religion a bad name.. but i shant rake up the past cos im over it. reading that makes me LAUGH even. too see how narrow-minded and naive some people can be. how comical.
oh well. toods~
saturday, 21.10.06 10:30 a.m.
meowmeow..spelling changed so as not to be confused with real life persona...here rubbing himself against my leg
grace and meow..
i realise im more fond of cats that i thought. hmmm.
wednesday, 18.10.06 09:21 p.m.
had sick cycle carousel by lifehouse stuck in my head all day.. i didnt even like the song much when i first heard it. but its grown on me like a wart..
today i drank 2 teh pings.. slept on the gym mats on the second level of the indoor sports hall before training started and had a dream but i forgot its contents.. got a grass jelly treat from manquan.. played bluff with some friends... and made friends with a kat in the skool karpark.. its damn cute la. grace named it miaomiao after the real miaomiao.. got photos then show you. we're gonna buy it a kat kollar kos right now its just wearing a sad pink raffia string around its neck. doesnt mean raffles jc then must make the cat wear raffia right...ha ha ha.....bye
monday, 16.10.06 09:45 p.m.
no secret code there.. just blank space for fun. tell you my marks for what? anyway, after school me and ruthy wento tara's house where we watched my super ex-girlfriend thank god we didnt watch it in the movies cos its a load of trash. tara has a pet cow called patch..
patch is a jack russell terrier.. a really unique one unlike any other ive ever seen.. and his back is flat and his head is 1/10 the size of his belly.hes tail-less but can wag his butt and hes deaf =( makes you wonder what tara does to him right?? kidding man.. he has a nice baby blue big pillow that he sleeps on.. her maid told me that he cant live without it. haha damn cute.
sucky mood begone....
saturday, 14.10.06 06:05 p.m.
today's my sister's and kuanfu's brother's and my next door neighbour's and my other neighbour's birthday so happy birthday to all especially my sister.. she's 25 already oh no. today has been a real crazy day and ive been bawling my eyes out so.. yeah. family things so not nice to blog about it. yesterday me ruth grace lois chelps val sharon steph tara jing wento watch overdrive the hiphop dance competition finals held at the esplanade with wade robson as a guest judge. boy is he sexy!! his voice and his dance moves.. to die for la. unfortunately every girl feels the same about him. so does his wife.
=(
all the good guys are always taken. oh well
i decided to steal this from grace's blog. its my pregnant hand and her pregnant arm after volleyball training...
i dont have photoshop so i use paint =( @w was me and grace's p3 computer lesson's login into those dumb math games.. aw and ow. cool? and yay grace is joining volleyball again~~
thursday, 12.10.06 11:06 a.m.
here~
just came back from my favourite kway teow breakfast with teh ping from the market.. and the moment i came down the market stairs my bus came. so i ran for my dear life to the busstop.. boy do i hate running. hope i dont get appendicitis for running with a full stomach.....
wednesday, 11.10.06 11:57 p.m.
yeah just a fun fact. anyway i had training today for the first time since... the last training.. which was uncountably long ago. after training my right hand was like 1.5 times fatter than my left.. it was quite funny. if it werent for the fact that it was quite painful like i got stung like a bee.. though i dont really know what a bee sting feels like. while we're on the topic i sometimes wish i'd one day get stung by a scorpion or snake cos i think thats pretty cool. but get stung and live to tell the story of course.. but i think stingrays should keep their distance. yeah. i only like them with sambal
me and my friends are addicted to florida's natural nuggets..
if you havent tried them gogogo try them now please..bye~
monday, 9.10.06 11:59 p.m.
>:)
sunday, 8.10.06 12:15 p.m.
my dad went to china this morning... my mum's at my grandma's house for the first anniversary of her passing. it's been a year already... thats like super fast. my other grandma's been gone for 5 months too. geez. tiger's been gone for.. in two days it'll be 7 months exactly. and my maid's been gone (gone as in gone back to philippines..) for 8 months. =(
okay.. sad things begone..! i love 23 by Jimmy Eat World. and thats my index number since sec 3 too so its cool. what shall i do from now till gerry's mooncake party tonight..?
crossed out means i dont want to think about them, not that theyve been done already.. aiya i dont really have a choice do i. i shall pack my room..! before i disappear under the sea of junk.
toods.
wednesday, 4.10.06 11:29 a.m.
then chelsea joined us later! loispig woke up at 4pm.. too bat. grace never come also =(
neoprint!! my gosh the last time i took one was.. last year. i just started decorating half the neoprints when i couldnt control the pen properly so some ugly pink squiggle came out.. and when i wanted to erase i pressed the button to confirm -.- stupid japanese machines.. so i couldnt erase the squiggle nor decorate anymore..! thats the top left hand pink one. my favourite one is the yellow one cos ruth looks damn funny and cute. HAHA
you know how people always ostracize ah lians and their act cute ways.. then imitate them to mock them even though theyre not around.. yeah. i think the more people mock ah lians by imitating them, the more they themselves become ah lians.. but then again, what fun are neoprints without the ah lianness? chelsea damn spoiler la.. smiling sweetly in all of them. purposely make us look ugly in comparison right??
going to grace's house now... bye!
tuesday, 3.10.06 11:59 a.m.
yay!! been waiting for this day since.. the start of the year.. well. after papers me and chelps went home to bathe and ruth went for class lunch then went home to bathe too. then we all went to orchard with lois and graceand ck too (val at class chalet.. lousy..) then we did nothing until dinnertime where us polo boys and girls went for a jap dinner at the starhub centre. it was 250 bucks at the end but for 11 of us so wasnt so bad after all.. but the food was o-kay only la.
yay i can play my heroes of might and magic V at last. but i think the game is too high tech for my comp though.
got to go bathe and meet them already..... yesterday walk until leg ache!! been sitting in chairs for too many long periods of time. but this type of discomfort i can get used to.
:)
friday, 29.9.06 10:33 p.m.
gogogo bio babies bhelps and buth!!
3 more days to play!
ruth please get to sleep tonight..dont think about playing yet!!
wheeze
thursday, 28.9.06 09:48 p.m.
why do shitty things always happen to me?
:(
i guess its just me.
saturday, 23.9.06 10:22 p.m.
oh dear.
nevertheless.. i am not giving up!! neither should anyone. just 2 more days to hell.. and 8 more days to the time of our lives (ignoring the physics people whose play time begins on friday)
cheers!
what are you hoping for?
monday, 18.9.06 05:21 p.m.
likewise,
nobody knows who you are deb! dont worry i wont tell anyone its you. they wont be able to tell from this photo.
:)
| You Are Strawberry Pocky |
 Comforting, yet quirky ... quietly hyper You always see both sides to everything |
i like strawberry pocky...
sunday, 17.9.06 10:30 p.m.
although tomorrow's munday~
today was, hands down, one of the funnest days ive ever had in school. ever! even though its just 8 days to promos :)
and even though its a sunday. haha.
thank god for friends.
friday, 15.9.06 07:13 p.m.
romantic story
this boy and girl were classmates in sec 3, and they kind of liked each other and got together (i think). then they went on to poly, where they were classmates again (imagine the possibilities!). however, they broke up after awhile cos the guy said he wanted his freedom (typical). and they did not contact each other at all for 2 years..
..two years later..
the guy was working in a record shop (thats CD shop now), and the girl happened to walk by. she knew the guy was working there.. so she asked the salesgirl if he was in. and he was.. and things picked up from there cos they'd loved each other all along. and then got married.. had 3 lovely daughters...
and i'm the third daughter! how romantic is that la. my parents give me hope.... then again such things are rare. from sec 3 till marriage.. wow. okay la i shant think so much now. 10 days to promos!! panic panic sweat sweat.
ganbatte!
thursday, 14.9.06 06:10 p.m.
although i dont feel like my problems are any smaller in comparison (cos you can never speak for anybody), the thought of it really frightens me. i tried to imagine the feeling of desperation and hopelessness.. like there's nothing in this world left for me to care about, think about, look forward to.. nobody in this world that would matter enough for me to press on. the though of it sucks like hell. i tried to imagine what could have been running through his head as he sat on the ledge. the intensity of the pain he felt that gave him the courage to do what he did..
i was really frightened. i started thinking what if it had been someone close to me.. it could have easily been anyone. and i thought about how our every tiny action affects somebody. whether its a smile in acknowledgement of someone's presence, or a wave, or a hug, or a note, a greeting card.. a phone call. something seemingly insignificant could mean the world to somebody. because it shows you care, even if only a little bit.
i admit that suicide easily flashes past my mind when i feel depressed.. but now i realise that a life is not to be taken lightly. such words always come easily.. but personally i dont think there's anything worth dying for at this age. i cant bear the thought of my world ending tomorrow, before i have the chance to grow up.. pursue my dreams, meet my true love, marry him and start a family. and worse, to imagine leaving behind all those whom i love and care about, my friends and family. i dont really know what to say now.. but im sure my thoughts are reflected in the minds of all those who received the news today.
take care, everybody.
wednesday, 13.9.06 10:54 p.m.
flavour of the month. and a little longer than that.
blind- lifehouse
I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried
After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor
After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
if i could translate my thoughts and feelings into a song.. this would be it.
funny how sometimes your best effort is all the difference you could ever make.
monday, 11.9.06 10:40 p.m.
-promos are in 14 days
-my msn fucks and i cant signin <- when i use that word on my blog means its really bad
-i feel like shit
-i feel sleepy
-i feel cranky
-i feel lonely
-i feel bored
-i still havent done my maths assignment
-but i dont intend to do it now
-maybe just cos its today.
funny how things can change so much in a year.
saturday, 9.9.06 09:49 p.m.
this is my country.. these are my friends. we are singaporeans (except sharon. lois converted!!), we are the original tall twelve.. ok la its bad enough that we're one big girly group, people even think we call ourselves the COOL twelve. hello no link?? not even alliteration la please. besides we only called ourselves the tall twelve in PASSING. it was a recess topic one day in the rgs canteen and suddenly we have no names! we have become the tall twelve. our identities have shrunk to 1/12 their original size. anyway just so the whole world knows, we are a nameless bunch so please stop naming us cos we have names. neither are we the waterpolo girls.. so cut that out please.
on a side note, i really like that fat pink pig. but i like ruth's pig even more!
picture blurred to protect victim's identity..... no la somebody has shaky hands. but i thought ruth's cam is shake proof or something like that..? hmmm.
im very sad the year is coming to an end =( soon jc will end and i dont even see where im headed after that... sigh. i think i'll go write children's books. that doesnt require much brains nor imagination. just a childish mind; that ive already fulfilled. 8 months till i'm 18, so i can be a kid till then. i am going to buy 4D on the day i turn 18!!
mug hard.. cup hard.. good luck
wednesday, 6.9.06 10:57 p.m.
love me please!
give me a hug
this is so 5 minutes ago.. i know. but ive always secretly wanted one.
friday, 1.9.06 10:19 p.m.
copper tellulite. i googled and its supposed to be tellurium. anyway its Cu Te just fyi.. no gerry and i didnt come up with that. well guess who? keep guessing..
im putting this up cos im smiling and maybe cos my friends havent seen it in quite awhile.. maybe not a real one. so hope this makes up for it......haha so cheesy
no more nonsense. promos!! see you soon.
p.s. any narcissicism was not intended at all. hey thats so not me.
wednesday, 30.8.06 11:07 p.m.
tuesday, 29.8.06 07:11 p.m.
if i just lay here
would you lie with me and
just forget the world.
glad you like the song.
got a major headache now! wanted to write some funny stuff i found in my sister's The WORST-CASE SCENARIO Survival Handbook: Dating & Sex but now i have a major headache (after doing pw) and have to do work so tomorrow then! bye..
monday, 28.8.06 09:18 p.m.
I guess I was weak, couldn't even hide it
And so I surrendered
just to hear your voice.
damn emo song.. the singer sounds like he's near tears.. when i listen to it i feel near to being near tears too... been listening to it over and over again yesterday and today for some reason. it just feels comforting somehow.
nowadays i rely on music alot for comfort. i keep listening to my comfort songs over and over again... the voices seem to be just singing to me and understanding how i feel and it just makes me a whole lot more calm and levelheaded i guess. my comfort songs really helped me alot these few days.. dont tell you what they are cos theyre MY comfort songs.
today's my dad's birthday so happy birthday daddy you're half a century plus one more year old! hope you arent reading this though.
my dad's a hardcore marvel comic fan so i bought this for his birthday:
X-Men Deadly Genesis #1. looks freaking cool la.. hardcover version one lor.. like some kind of bible. kind of burned another hole in my pocket full of holes.. but its worth it! cos i know he likes it. only trouble is there are 6 books.. but this first one only came out in july so there'll be a long wait for the whole series. oh well if you can wait for harry potter.. you can wait for anything.
got to do bio stuff now so bye!
Perdona si te estoy llamando en este momento
Pero me hacia falta escuchar de nuevo
Aunque sea un instante tu respiracion
(spanish version of the lyrics above. super romantic..)
sunday, 27.8.06 11:12 a.m.
look ma.. two left hands
aikkwan my lab partner's plasticine puppet
my ice cream tsunami..
cocker spaniel puppies.. i want one
me and sabu's silver mirror. gloat~
bye have a great sunday!
saturday, 26.8.06 11:18 p.m.
set my thoughts awhirl,
made my mind spin for hours.
just thinking about you.
tried to embrace you..
but you just proved more elusive each time
i guess i took you for granted last time
when things were so happy, so easy
i really tried.
tried to understand you..
sorry.. but i give up.
maybe someday i'll try again.
where you= Chapter 8- Summation Series & Mathematical Induction.
honestly, what were you thinking?? i told you nomore emo kid right. ok fine im not funny at all... so say the guys in my class. and my friends. =( yeah well.. chapter 8 really makes my head spin. what happened to primary school number patterns?? i miss primary school..... especially the chilli fishcake. im really hungry now.. i think im gonna get gastric flu or something soon. im eating less and less.. help!! its like im really hungry but by the time i actually eat im so hungry that im not hungry anymore. i think its really unhealthy...... but what to do. blame the teachers for taking all our breaks away =(
just realised my quiz results said that im an angry child but i have a newborn soul. i know theyre a whole load of bull but i think theyre pretty accurate sometimes you know.
| You Are Strawberry Ice Cream |
 You often find yourself on the outside looking in. Insightful and pensive, you really understand how the world works. You are most compatible with chocolate chip ice cream. |
i dont really fancy strawberry ice cream actually.
friday, 25.8.06 06:25 p.m.
| Your Inner Child Is Angry |
 But when you don't get your way, watch out. Like a very manipulative kid, you will get what you want. Even if it takes a little kicking and screaming. |
| You Are a Newborn Soul |
 On the flip side, you're easy to read and easily influenced by others. You have a fresh perspective on life, and you can be very creative. Noconformist and nontraditional, you've never met anyone who's like you. Inventive and artistic, you like to be a trendsetter. You have an upbeat spirit and you like almost everything. You make friends easily and often have long standing friendships. Implusive and trusting, you fall in love a little too easily. Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul |
| Your EQ is 127 |
 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar. |
| You Are 44% Gross |
 Maybe it's time to drop some of those disgusting habits that could eventually embarrass you! |
| You Have A Type B+ Personality |
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You're a pro at going with the flow You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer A total joy to be around, people crave your stability. While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity. Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done You're passionate - just selective about your passions |
| You Are 43% Addicted to Love |
 You've been a fool for love many times - but are you the wiser for it? Your needs should come first, both in and out of relationships. Because you're the only one who can look out for yourself! |
| You Are a Caramel Crunch Donut |
 You've been known to sit around pondering the meaning of life... Or at times, pondering the meaning of your doughnut. To frost or not to frost? To fill or not to fill? These are your eternal questions. |
doing quizzes makes me happy.
friday, 25.8.06 05:59 p.m.
and food, too.
monday, 21.8.06 04:41 p.m.
i have one too.
sunday, 20.8.06 10:41 p.m.
sit outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing
i love that song. sometimes i just feel as though the songs are being sung for me. like the words just connect with me.
trying not to let anything matter to me now, i just want to get past promos. and i will.
scary knowing my sister reads my blog. so... bye....
saturday, 19.8.06 11:30 p.m.
friday, 18.8.06 12:05 a.m.
damn that stupid tube of sour haribo. stay clear of gummies
wednesday, 16.8.06 06:45 p.m.
PW is quite inactive (for now..) and a giant sorry to my groupmates for forgetting to print my part out today..... but i still feel damn carefree and happy now.. 40 days to promos though. cannot be too carefree. bye~~~ im going to zang zui (bathe in hokkien) lois and i have decided that we will speak dialect when we're older. jin ho! bye again.
one short poll.
bye for the third time.
tuesday, 15.8.06 10:10 p.m.
Donald Rumsfeld gave the President his daily briefing. He concluded by saying: "Yesterday, three Brazilian soldiers were killed." "Oh no!" the President exclaimed. "That's terrible!" His staff was stunned at this display of emotion, nervously watching as the President sat, his head in his hands. Finally, the President looked up and asked, "Just exactly how many is a brazillion?"
gazillion.. brazilian. makes perfect sense i suppose? if youre george bush that is. bye~
monday, 14.8.06 08:57 p.m.
im in a good mood now cos i had a great day even though i woke up on the wrong side of the bed.. but things started going uphill after i woke up from my bio lecture nap. sleep really makes people happy! then i skipped pe and went home and went back to school to meet my PW Palz beifen and aikkwan to go to the mediacorp studios at andrew road 3 busstops away from school.... we had an interview with the CEO of raintree pictures.
then! we saw bryan wong and took photo with him!!
i like him alot hes so funny and cute~ very handsome in real life! but got chest hair leh.. so turn off
and we saw hong junyang! i love him too~~~
why everybody so stiff? except me.. im a natural in front of the camera man. not cameraman but camera, man. yeah. haha sooo cute i love junyang's voice... and he smells super nice i could smell him while standing next to him!! sorry for the smell fetish. beifen and i were so excited! and starstruck too haha. aikkwan dint really wanto take photo with junyang but he said he dint want to make him lose face. yeah right!! bet inside he was bursting with joy and elation.
i saw matilda from sg idol too and said hi. but i wasnt excited cos i dont really like her. but i like her abit more now cos shes pretty nice. wheres hady and jonathan =(
oh.. picture especially for deborah (like i promised tee hee)
cute what. got star * to cover um. guess the word. heterolytic cl_ _v_g_ cannot make people excited....
i miss my sister already. shes only been gone 3 days! =( 4 months to go... sigh. shes on an exchange programme in montreal, canada.
got to do EOM. bye bye
sunday, 13.8.06 09:14 p.m.
end of emo.. got to do chemistry.
saturday, 12.8.06 11:56 p.m.
i have finally uploaded and captioned all my holiday photos taken in june when i was in canada and boston. enjoy them
here
bye! goodnight.
saturday, 12.8.06 11:14 a.m.
just now i was thinking about how everything we dont like is good for us. like
-walking? i walked home just now cos i missed the bus and im all sweaty now (luckily the cute hc guy was nowhere to be seen) but i mean its good for us
-studying (this one is a no brainer)
-bitter herbal tea (i hate it! but it really works. according to my mum, that is)
-being nagged at. you have to admit its really effective. though its a long and torturous neverending process..
hmm cant think of anything else. but i know one thats damn sucky and bad for you at the same time
durians
-make your mouth smelly
-make your fart smelly (ive experienced it before but not me.. after my dad eats durians..)
-are heaty
-can cut your hands
-stink up the whole world and the fridge
-most of all, taste like decomposed garbage leftover from 1992
i bet its not even for eating la. i bet mother nature put it there to.. protect the durian trees from birds.. cos the bark of the durian tree can make you immortal if you brew it with cockroach feelers and ostrich eggs for 3 days and 3 nights....but due to mutation and selection pressure, the birds started to like the smelly shits and eat them and humans started to eat them too.
going to study with my durian-eating best friend lois~
later on. my other durian-eating best friend is grace
! both so ugly one. best friend sounds kindergarten-ish. but it is true anyway. 44 days to promos.. press on!!cute photo for you..
pequito the mosquito.. my sister's holland lop bunny. cute beyond description. thats his litter box shreds on his head after he burrowed in them.
have a good weekend see you on monday!
friday, 11.8.06 10:45 p.m.
sleeping baby :)
sooo cute..
me carrying baby~ i want one too...
she's smiling......well sort of
Iman Talia Zahiri-Han En! sooooooooo cute la steph and i think that her face belongs to a fruit. you know like those cartoon fruits with faces.... yeah i can see her face on like an orange. damn cute please? i want a baby too.... :( hope my babies next time are cute.
thursday, 10.8.06 09:31 p.m.
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sam,
the world's ugliest dog.
died last august. rest in peace sam, you hideous creature. (to quote the web page i ripped the pictures from)
3 time winner of the America's Ugliest Dog contest. well deserved, i can see. shudder
thursday, 10.8.06 11:43 a.m.
1st runner up in america's ugliest dog contest.
ok i'd hate to see how the ugliest dog looks like. yucks!! i wonder if the tongue hanging out is real.. looks like a fake tongue strawberry gummy, no?
anyway school celebrations on tuesday..!! i took many photos.
me and mr ngan. hes so cute!!
class birthday babies
sher(a)lyn and sheralyn
grace and a very unwilling chenkai
polo act cute boys
whatsup with this photo man
chelps me and leslie our ogl who dint comb his hair
walao eh. sherwin sim >=(
thats all for the celebrations.... then yesterday we wento kuanfu's house for his birthday. we watched ndp there and deborah stood up to sing the national anthem twice cos she didnt wanto be disrespectful.....
our class plus SHOUYEE. walao eh >=(
birthday boy so cute :) the cake too. dint dare to use flash..
after that our class (the people left) were hanging out in his room and exchanging scary stories. i swear i almost couldnt get to sleep last night......
ohya. happy 17th birthday kuanfu! <3 haha. anyway just to clear things up with everyone, we're just good friends now. so... yup. maybe abit closer than good friends but not too close also. aiya i also dunno. dont ask me =(
never posted so many photos in one entry before. got to go grace's house soon. bye!
national day, 2006 10:34 a.m.
no your internet isnt screwing up, this is the only entry here cos ive archived the rest. not only are they full of pictures that cant load, there are too many entries and will do nobody any good so i have stashed them away on another page here. a refreshing new start! the sky's all gloomy outside now, but i suppose its a good thing so the clouds will all waterless by the time the NDP is carried out.
im starting to have totally queer dreams now.. like nowadays my dreams always contain the people i think about or meet the day before, and the things i think about in the day or before i sleep. let's say i have this thing i want to bring to school the next day but am afraid i'll forget to bring it, without fail i'll dream about going to school without it. then i'll wake up all panicky and feel relieved that i havent gone to school yet yay. some paranoia huh? thinking and worrying too much really stinks but i mean the more you try not to think about something, the more you'll think about it right? just like my entry 2 years ago after going through judo sports psychology. the guy told us:
don't think about a pink elephant
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so there. have a nice day!
